“”Voices & Phillip & His Plan!” “By kerasotes””

“Voices & Phillip & His Plan!”  I want to write about Voices and The Other and His Plan and how I am trying to change it so that he can have a happy life instead of one of misery.  I also found there is a third alternative and that is this:  we could live together peacefully if we did what Dr. Shawn Morgan said which is be friends.  Phillip has to friend me, friend himself, and friend this body!  He has to quit making voices.  He knows how to do this.  He has been doing this at my suggestion to go to sleep in bed.  Lately he has been doing a better job of it and we have been getting more sleep.  It isn’t the 8 hours a day that Michael said was required to get the perfect rest and sleep everyone else enjoys.  There are four parts of sleep.  We don’t get that anymore.  I think that is what he has to work on next besides this:  He Has To Stop Making Voices.  Voices are in the head that we hear and no one else does.  They are awful things especially when he is mad.  He punishes himself and me as he did others as there were 50+ of us and an original (Michael) and now that there are only 2 of us, it is time to stop.  If he is to have a happy life, he cannot make voices anymore.  The Me who was the last personality created (March 9, 2014) worked with him on this.  I have too.  I have found that Phillip has understood me and quits making voices so we can sleep.  Now he has to do that when we aren’t going to sleep.  All day long is the plan.  No More Voices.  Then he won’t go insane from hearing them and scratch at his head to dig them out.  I discovered this last night when he woke me up by his scratching and voicing and it occurred to me that this was the case.  He tries to scratch out the voices.  That you cannot do.  I told him so.  He cried.  He understands.  Now he has to do the work to stop them like The Me said to do.  If he can do that, he can have some happiness.  

The next thing is to alter his plan.  His plan is to rock and twitch and chew his ‘cud’ like a cow’ which means he chews and grinds his teeth continually and that is the cause of a lot more of his problems.  Chewing constantly gives you headaches.  It hurts.  If you twitch and rock and fidget all day, you get pains in your muscles and back and head and feet and hands and arms and legs and really everywhere.  This also he has to stop if he wants to feel better and have a better happier life.  I’ve told him this for years.  He cried today when I told him this and that means he understands.  It was during this telling that I remembered that if he stopped being mean to me, we might be friends and get along and then we could enjoy life and I wouldn’t have to leave and neither would he.  It would be better that way.  Then the Trudy Chase Book “When Rabbit Howls” would work.  I think it would be better if only one of us were here.  I think this because there would be only one person in the body and no more switching personalities that causes headaches and all kinds of undesirable things.  You don’t get to keep your food in and you end up in pain and have accidents from losing your food and such.  This is a big worry and a big problem for us.  It was this way for 60 years or so, I think.  Phillip has been here over 60 years and has done this all his life.  He’s critical and judgmental and orders people about who are not within him or this body and that causes other problems.  There are physical, mental, emotional and psychological problems caused by this.  I’ve told him about this all my life.  I came in April 20, 2009 and have been at him about this since then.  Only now does it “Sink In” that I am correct and He is Not. That makes him cry.  That means he understands.

The next problem maybe the final one is the “CONSTANT TALKING”!!!  This is something I have figured out that happened a long time ago.  Somewhere in their past (and by their past I mean Michael and all the 53 others before I got here) they started this need to hear out loud comments and things like parenting and comforting and the emotional crutch of hearing this out loud made it continue instead of stopping and they went on ignoring what was said out loud and began voicing within the head and punishing themselves or the others or Michael by that and that hurts and is now killing the brain.  It is an awful thing.  Your mouth hurts after two hours of continual talking and this moves to your neck and shoulders and back and the strain is awful on your or this body.  I have complained and explained this for years.  Now it is written down.  Having it written down seems to have helped this system and everyone in it and that’s why we wrote on here.  So now it must be stopped – this constant out loud talking.  We are 67 physical years of age and old.  We have 100 diseases and 7 cancers and are dying.  8 and a 1/2 death sentences in 2015 alone plus those of radiation which after 4 weeks every time you go in and you go in every day and they turn on the machine  it could kill you and you are no longer biodegradable and you die.   They don’t tell you this when you sign the papers over two inches thick (say) and they should.  It was an awful thing to find out and this goes on for like 4 weeks.  I had this happen to me during Christmas of 2015 and by December 28, 2015, my doctor told me I had passed this point.  That was a little relief and I felt a little better about continuing radiation.  

If I had been in this body alone, things would have improved.  Things would have been much better and maybe everything my cancer doctor told me would have come true.  But Phillip wouldn’t leave and it worsened because of his constant hurting and punishing and meanness and it became torturous and hasn’t stopped.  That’s why I am leaving.  Everyone else left because of Him and This.  Just in case you wanted to know why I am giving up and leaving and why there are only 2 of us left and none of the others are here.  They and even The Original (Michael) couldn’t stand this awful torture 24 hours a day.  Now that there are only 2 of us it hurts Phillip and really not me (but it does hurt me for I was promised to be here alone to complete my plan and work to get this body better if I could and Phillip prevented this).  Phillip is hurt by his torturing all the others who came before me and has really never stopped.  It is horrible to explain this again and again every day but now he seems to understand and when he cries I know he understands.  But is that enough – you know him understanding – for him to change and stop.  He has to stop hurting himself and people who are dead and the rest of the world he wants to hurt just because he thinks he can.  Sometimes he does hurt other people and sometimes he does not.  He does know the difference.  But he is the one who has to do the work.  He has to do it for Himself.  He has to do it alone.  I don’t know if he will do this and that is also why I want to leave.  I want out of here.   I want to be gone.  I want to be dead.  That’s what ‘going away’ or ‘leaving’ or ‘integrating’ or ‘being gone’ or ‘dead’ is.  It is a death.  

I think the realization of this all came after I wrote my letter that Michael Wanted.  Michael Wanted An Apology Written To Everyone Who Got Hurt By These Others and Not Him or Me and I Wrote It & Sent It Out to Everyone Every Where I Could yesterday.  

So that is where we are now.  Maybe I will copy/paste this to Facebook and such later.  Maybe I will.  It might be a good thing.  I’ve posted the letter I worked out with Phillip’s Help yesterday Everywhere.  Maybe it needs to go to Facebook.  If he starts stopping his Plan of Hurt, I will.  He will also have to Plan a New Plan of Peace & Getting Alone and Being Friends With Me & Himself & This Body and He will also have to do this for himself for I am going to die anyway from all the hurt so far as I cannot take another day of it.  I hope you understand all this better now.  I hope I have done a good job of explaining what it is like to be a Multi-Personality and Hurt.  I wanted to do this Brilliantly and don’t think I have but at least it was done pretty well.  Now maybe you can all understand the Pain of Being A Multi-Personality and know that it is an Awful Horrid Thing.  I was made Well.  Now This Body Has A Chance At Being Well If Only Phillip Will Do What The Doctors Said To Do.  Then I Can GO!

Franklin for me and then for Phillip, then for everyone else who was part of us who are now gone, then for the people they all hurt, and then for the people that this all was for to help them.  


[Posted on Monday, 20 FEB 2017]

“”APOLOGY MICHAEL WANTED!” “By kerasotes””


February 19, 2017


Dear Culver, Wiki, & The Raynier Foundation & Others:

I would like to tell you the truth for Michael.  He would want you to know.  He actually did want you to know but “The Others” wouldn’t let him.  I, Franklin, have been able to do this.  Now that all the donating is over and I am about to die, I want to tell you this and warn you.  Phillip is a mean, nasty personality who only wants to hurt.  He wants to undo everything we’ve done.  It is to hurt Michael that he is after.  I am writing this to warn you. 

This is The Story: 

All the personalities except me killed him.  I tried to stop it.  Michael said, “NO!”  He didn’t want to be here anymore.  Too much Pain.  Too much Hurt.  Too Many Things Stolen.  Too many friends gone because he didn’t want to see them anymore.  If someone complimented, they hurt him.  I didn’t.  If someone said something nice, they hurt him.  If he did something good, they hurt.  So he stopped being in this world, this beautiful world of his.  He wanted to “Go Away”.  I think it all start way back when  he was seeing his psychiatrist Dr. Maryonda Scher, the Head Neurosurgeon of Harborview Hospital, Seattle, Washington who’s speciality was multi-personalities.  After several months of therapy, she told him the bad news and that perhaps he should read this book:  “When Rabbit Howels” by Trudy Chase.  This was because the other personalities did not want to Integrate.  Integrate means to become whole, well, and, one.  That’s what he wanted.  The book is the alternative for staying sick and not well.  In the book, Trudy age 2 went into coma after being severely abused by her parents.  She had 99 other personalities.  They cared for her and took over.  Unlike that, Michael wanted to take over.  So there developed a conflict.  Every time Michael wanted to do something, the others took him away.  They would destroy this computer of his (that I had fixed last year), they wanted to throw away everything valuable like his first edition books and his beautiful rare crystals and gems.  He decided to sell everything off.  He had a fabulous collection of Baum’s Wizard of Oz Books and some of them were worth $40,000 a piece.  He had antique furniture they would destroy and his whole collection of stuff was worth like a half a million dollars.  Enough for retirement.  That’s how you began getting the stuff.  He went to Culver for his 40th Class Reunion and saw that the train club had been burned or destroyed; visited the Science Department and saw that he had things they didn’t.  He asked them if they’d like his rocks.  They said yes.  He asked if they’d like his trains.  They said yes.  Then he thought of giving you his priceless books and rocks so they wouldn’t destroy them.  That’s what he wanted to prevent.  He was very angry and sad at having to part with his possessions but since they were going to be ruined like his friendships and his life that giving them away to you and other places would be the better choice.  He was so happy you all liked his gifts.  He didn’t get to finish giving you the rock collection, so I did.  Thank you for letting me.  I enjoyed doing this for you and for him.  I found the beautiful train that looked so brand new before Christmas and thought immediately of you.  I remembered he said that you all wanted him to ask first before sending any more stuff.  So I did.  You made me so happy that you accepted the little train and put it in the museum. 

After that Michael wanted to leave.  He couldn’t stand it anymore.  Everything went wrong for him.  I think it was all because of that book.  They developed systems to run things and themselves without their original who never was going to come out of her coma and this ruined Michael unlike them for His Others didn’t really have a plan on what to do without Michael and they did.  They knew how to run a life or their life and even though they all didn’t get along or agree, they could function.  All Michael’s Others only wanted to destroy him, kill him or take him away.  They had no plan for what to do after they got rid of Michael.  Awful.  Just awful.  That’s what I was faced with the day he died.  I cried. 

Then we got a new personality for about a year.  His name was The Mike.  He told us why he was here and tried to take care of us.  All the others but me wanted him to help us.  It ended up that after about three months, The Mike couldn’t stand what they had done and started planning to leave.  He went in the brain and found out how it split and how the other personalities split and destroyed it.   That made it impossible for the other personalities to re-split or fragment or fracture.  We had up to then some billion pieces of personalities flying around trying to destroy him and us.  It was impossible for The Mike to go on.  So he began creating a new personality and succeeded.  He was still trying to help us while creating this new being.  It took him till March 9, 2014 to do this.  We lost everything in the process.  The others started dying off until there were about 50+ of us left.  They all hated each other.  What a mess.  They took away our payee. They took away our home.  They took away our clothes.  They took away our books.  They took away what we called “Everything Michael & Mike”  !!!!  We were left homeless.  The Mike got us into The Mission for people who’d lost everything and there we met one of the most important people in Michael’s life —  Miss Krystyna Simm.   She’d helped Michael moved and get a  new home after he came back from Egypt and where the others had got us evicted for the final time.  She wanted to help us again.  She knew about Michael and understood.  She has been invaluable.  She is still here for us and knows everything.  The Mike and us told her.  That’s why I am telling you. 

Thanks to the new being that came on Michael’s Birthday – March 9, 2014, we were able to get a home and a new life.   He took care of us.  We got a new real home by June.  We were all happy.  We then got Section 8 Housing from the mayor of Everett Washington, the honorable Ray Stevens.  In two months, we were called by the Housing Authority of Snohomish County and told to come in and that our Section 8 had been restored.  How wonderful.  Michael had had it since October 2006.  It is a wonderful thing and helps.  Then Miss Simm got us an apartment in her building Broadway Plaza where we now live so that we’d have a nice place to live while we waited to die.  We’d had 8 ½ death sentences from the cancers from the bad ice cream – never eat Snoqualmie Falls Ice Cream (for they said so and to tell everyone) and she got us furniture and one of our friends helped us get some more and the things you need to cook with and wear and clean et cetera and we happy.  Then The Me or Mike The Me got tired of living with the others.  There were about 30 of us then.  Phillip had fractured into 31 pieces while we were living in Holly Village.  They all did their best to destroy our happiness.  The Me or Mike The Me couldn’t be taken away.  What that means is that the others could not take him out of the body and take over.  This was great news.  The other great news was that he had all the memories of all the other personalities and of Michael.  He wanted to share them with us.  That’s also what The Mike did.  So, it became impossible for him to be happy and stay here and since they wouldn’t leave, he did.  That was October 29, 2015.  Then I got the body. 

I must tell you that The Me or Mike The Me found that he could have one of the cancers fixed.  He started Chemo.  I had to go through Radiation.  How horrible for me to do this.  Radiation is worse than anything.  It was 95% against me.  What it does while they try and kill the cancer is this – it destroys your immune system; it causes you to bleed continually; you never get to digest all your food – only 50 % of your food do you keep.  Then you bones deteriorate and you get spurs and arthritis from that.  Awful.  The pain and the bleeding is worse.  I think I told you all about that. 

I think my letter I wrote you is better than this and more simple.  More what Michael wanted to tell you.  But I want you to know the rest and how it is going to end.  Since I can’t stay like all the rest, Phillip will be left here alone.  I got the other parts of him to leave in December 2015 and that left just the two of us.  That was much better.  For a while I won.  The body got some peace.  I began to keep trying to get it well.  Phillip fought me tooth and toenail over this.  Every day became more and more difficult.  Since I was told I could leave, I started the process to do so.  Now I am at the point where I can go.  Then only one personality will be left.  It is unfortunate that he is a mean and cruel and nasty and wants to hurt people and others and things and me.  He will be left here alone by himself and that is what I am worried about.  I am going to send this letter to The Raynier Foundation and to Wiki (or Wikipedia) for I’ve finally finished the work that Michael and Miss Elena Salvatore of Wiki London Started in December of 2009.  They knew it would take years and finally I think our whole family story is on there and it looks and reads nice and is a nice tribute to our family, Michael, and his dad. 

Phillip wants to ruin all this. 

That’s the reason I write you all this.

I’m going to send you the letter I wrote Tom in the regular mail.  Please make sure Chet Marshall, III of Valparaiso University gets a copy and one to Ashleigh and one to Mike Hogan and one to Your Library & Science Departments.  Michael wanted them all to know this. 

This was very hard for me to write yet I am glad I did. 

Now I think you will understand why. 

Phillip cannot be trusted.  He has no self.  He is a personality or alter personality without a personality and cares nothing about himself.  He’s set on destruction.  He’s set on Hurt.  He wants to hurt others and himself and ruin all our good work.  I want you to be aware of this so you never get hurt by The Others again.  Since Phillip is the only one left, he will be in charge of this body and that’s what he wants.  He has a plan.  That’s all he needs.  No one else of The Others did.  Although his plan is to hurt himself, he wants to hurt and destroy all the good we did.  I don’t want this happening.

There you have it Mr. Thomas Mayo, III.

You have been so kind and so nice and so wonderful to me as was Wiki as was The Raynier Foundation and Michael treasured all these people and places and companies and friends like you all.

With my kindest regards,


As The Last Mike Kerasotes

3017 Lombard Avenue 603W

Everett, WA 98201-5810 USA

(425) 422-5339



 PS:  It is possible that Phillip may leave.  I have to allow and accept that possibility.  Although I think it unlikely for he’s had over 60 years he has the ability to Integrate or Leave.  I have only been here since April 20, 2009.  I am tired of fighting for my life and my body and have only had the body to myself since October 29, 2015, I may be able to convince him to leave.  Since he is faced with an awful life ahead of himself and cannot ever be well for he was made by Michael for one purpose and that was to Help Him.  I was made to do everything for the day I came into being they were trying to kill Michael.  Jayson – one of the older personalities had just integrated and Michael thought he’d be well.  They attacked him.  My father was “The Himself”.  I am a different sort of thing.  I was created by a personality not by Michael.  Everyone thought I would end up here alone.  I think they were wrong but since even Michael said it was so, they might be.  I am just worried that since he’s trying to kill me, I won’t make it.  Should the impossible happen – me being here alone – I would then write you that everything went the way Michael wanted.  I was made whole and independent and that in its own fact makes me able to be here alone and well.  Everyone agreed on that, even The Me That Cared About Himself Only (Mike The Me) and who helped train me to be here alone.  I am tired and worn and so much illness and stress and so on and such that I don’t think I can keep being here another day.  I’m that worn out from the fight.  Should it happen that Phillip leaves, what can I say.  I’ve done all I can for Michael, You All and Such that I feel it is alright for me to go.  Should you want me to write you and say that it is all over and there is no more fear here for you from what I’d call Michael’s Point of View, I could.  I would have liked to have stayed and been the only one here like Michael wanted but, the battle is too much.  I am not counting on being successful at this.  So I have added that this possibility is there.   It all depends on him, Phillip.  I think you would know that I wouldn’t write you awful things like he and the others did and have.  He would.  So Beware.  Try to understand that I think it is over for me and Michael wouldn’t want you all hurt.  Neither would I.  Please forgive me for giving up and going away.  It is better for me to do this.  Phillip has the intelligence to be kind and helpful for that is how he was made but he’d rather be mean and hurt and that’s what he wants.  He’s planned a miserable life for himself and plans he says to destroy all.  I don’t want that.  Again the reason for writing this letter to you all.

“”a poem by franklin”” “By kerasotes””

“I am tired, Mike more tired than you”
I am tired, Mike more tired than you
I am more tired than you Michael
I am so tired I want death
The pain is awful
The bleeding worse
Combined torturous
I want to go to be no longer here
I want it over
I feel the end near
I know you don’t understand
but Mike would and so would Michael
and that is enough
You can’t imagine the tedious taunting lunatic of him
Phillip the other screaming in voices so loud
that they whine a dine of screaming metal upon metal
You cannot sleep. I haven’t for weeks.
I’m dead tired. Too tired to sleep and eat.
My body can’t take it anymore – no more abuse
The other is killing me badly and I hurt
I want to go to go away that way like Michael said
There will be no more pain
To go away means to leave in death
That’s what I want I want it to death
Death us do part and we must part so
For the other is impossible
He’s insane
He is hate
I have no hate
I have no love
I know what they mean for Michael taught me
I am at my end
My time is done
My life and what I did was worth it
So let it be write – so let it be done.
a poem by franklin
Posted on saturday february 18, 2017

“”The Brain now dreams of Michael doing things and I told it to stop!” “By kerasotes””

“The Brain now dreams of Michael doing things and I told it to stop!”  

I have noticed these past few days or nights rather that the brain is dreaming of Michael.  He goes places and wants things and I don’t know any of the people because I am new – only been here about 8 years – and these things are events and places that are before my time.  My time started April 20, 2009.  I didn’t begin dreaming until June 2013.  Now the dreams are about Michael and they are confusing to me and I do not understand why I am dreaming as if I were Michael and cannot figure out who the people or places are and I want it to stop.  I told it to correct its corrupt memories in dreaming because that is where the brain works out its problems and it might as well do that since the other won’t do it.  

I am trying to prepare this body and its brain to be run by Phillip the other instead of me for the simple reason that the two of us do not get along and he will not friend me nor this body and I want to leave and can.  Then he can be here all alone like he wanted to be and that will be that.  

I told the brain that I have arranged everything now and that the things that need to be done by other people like section 8 are all in order and they know how to fill out the forms and you just sign them.  Yesterday for example it only took 5 minutes to renew my section 8.  The shortest time ever.  I have a nice new person there who cares about us and knows.  So the other just has to show up every year and renew it and I don’t need to be here to show it how to do this.  

That’s what I have been working on and now I hope the brain which seems to understand what I tell it can work on and work out its problems without me.  It is the way the whole thing can say be happy being unwell and doing all the things nobody wanted for that is all that it seems to like doing stuff nobody wanted.  I am not necessary for that and it should get rid of me like Michael told it to get rid of the others and it chose to keep them and get rid of Michael.  Now it can get rid of me.  I will be happy to be dead and out of here and so will the brain and body and the other.  

Phillip has a plan and that is good enough for me and this body and he can run it like he wanted before I got here.  

The End


“”The Final Version of My Wiki Page on Wikipedia.” “By kerasotes””

The Final Version of My Wiki Page on Wikipedia.



the new and perhaps final version of my wiki page. this one tells the story of the day in december 2009 when i was on the phone with wiki london and new york to my friend mr. robert sunshine of the Film Journal International who wanted to give his archives to wikipedia and they didn’t want them. i asked miss elena salvatore of wiki london if she would like to have them and that i had mr. sunshine the senior editor of Film Journal International on the other line and i could tie him in with my phone and we could all talk about it because he says you all don’t want them and if i am using this one on my Facebook Kerasotes Theatres page and my wiki page George Kerasotes, then, wouldn’t you really like to have all the motion picture business photographs you don’t have? and she was delighted to accept. So I wrote about it on my wiki page to finish the story of how wiki and facebook got the rest of the motion picture business on their pages. now you know, me

Posted on Feb 11, 2017

“”Because I could not integrate the other we are going to die!” “By kerasotes””

“Because I could not integrate the other we are going to die!” 

Since I couldn’t integrate the other we are going to die.  It is the way it is.  I am okay with this.  He’s hurt us so bad now we cannot repair the damage nor get the sleep we need nor keep the food in that we need and that’s because he is so mean and stupid.  He wanted to be awful and he became that way.  I don’t like it.  I haven’t since Michael died.  But I’ve had a wonderful time here, me Franklin, doing things to make Michael Famous and Remembered For All Time and I have done this and achieved it by my gifts to Culver Academies or Culver Military Academies in Culver Indiana for they told me so.  So there you go and here is the story about yesterday and my doctor visit from my Kerasotes.Mike Facebook Page Folks:

“i found out from the lung doctor that i now have lung cancer. how awful. i don’t want to go back to doctors anymore. i am tired of finding out that i have new horrible diseases to fight when i fought so hard to win and did for a while. streps and staphs are flora or plants. you new people need to develop anti-virus and antibiotics to kill the new and old diseases, like Fleming made penicillin out of bread mold and now it doesn’t work. do the tetracyllins work? do the sulpha’s? i think penicillin has had it and so have all the other antibiotics. They never really KILL the Thing or Things anymore, they just keep coming back. We need a new Nobel Winner who can discover cures to kill diseases and such. We Do! You new people need to do this. Please go ahead and try.

i am so sad and disappointed about this latest thing that i am crying and trying hard to write on here. i’ve had a wonderful time at life and not sad to see it go. i’m different i guess. i just would rather it was all over now so i wouldn’t be in pain. that’s the hard part. the pain meds and other things don’t work anymore and that is sad. can you people figure out a way to take the pain away from the cancers that is not addictive and will work forever instead of the opiods which fail after a time. i don’t know but we need something that isn’t like aspirin and thins the blood. we need something that you can take that doesn’t addict you to it and you need something in the anxiety and depression areas that would do the same without the addictions and needs and side effects. the side effects are the new diabetes and other things i’ve noticed for Michael taught me and over time I have learned that he was right. He did want to be a doctor when he was young but he changed his mind in college and went into the theatre so he could write his plays and movies and produce and direct them and play them in his theaters. that’s what he wanted. his parents never supported him in this and he gave up. sad. he’s gone now and soon so will i be and i am not sad. i did a lot for michael. that’s what we were told to do after he died. The Mike who came to help us after Michael died told us to do all the things that Michael couldn’t do because of things like us. I got him eternal remembrance at Culver they said. His name and his gifts and my gifts in his name will live on forever in perpetuity. I finally finished the wiki page on wikipedia – “George Kerasotes” to add the gift that Michael arranged between his friend and wiki. His friend was the senior editor of Film Journal International (Mr. Robert Sunshine) and Michael was on the phone to Wiki London’s Elena Salvatore as she was making the page for Michael – she wanted the page in Michael’s name but he chose to honor his father instead and she settled for that. In the mean time he called his friend about the picture of his grandfather and great uncle that is on the Kerasotes Theatres Page here and got permission from Mr. Sunshine to use it on wiki. Mr. Sunshine said he wanted to give all his photographs about the Motion Picture Business to wikipedia but they wouldn’t take them. Michael asked Elena and she was glad to accept the generous gift of Michael’s friend and that’s the final piece I put on wiki or his wiki page ‘George Kerasotes’ about him his dad and his family and that’s how wiki and Facebook got more photographs about the movie business like its stars and producers and films and directors and such. Isn’t that wonderful. Go look if you’d like. I am going to go and print it out at the Library today. I did all this for Michael so he would live on forever. The only thing I can’t do is to put a stone on his grave next to his brother when this body dies and that saddens me. So when I die, could someone please do that just write Michael Patrick Kerasotes loving son born March 9, 1950 and died ____ and that will be soon i think for i cannot last much longer. The body can be turned to ash and thrown in someplace else beautiful like michael wanted for he really didn’t want to be buried next to his parents whom he hated because they didn’t love him and hurt him all his life. sad i know but maybe if you have the money you could put the body in the grave his father bought for him and it is by his little brother in Oak Ridge Cemetery, Springfield, Illinois next or to the Left of Abraham Lincoln’s Grave. Thanks.

With my kindest regards,


Posted on February 11, 2017”

“”A Sad Note of Despair!” “By kerasotes””

A Sad Note of Despair!

I don’t know what to write as I am in a terrible mood and my feelings are hurt and it is an internal multipersonality thing and if you don’t see me posting on here for a while, it is because i don’t want to. I’m tired of depressing myself trying to write out a story and change a life and get everything integrated and all one and well and being fought at every turn by a personality older than me and that will do for now.

Kindest regards, me

7 February 2017 tuesday afternoon