“”Dear Sir and Therapist 22 JULY 2016 friday morn … .” “(c) 2016 by kerasotes””

I made a list of the things this other personality does. I did it to help me, this brain, and him. It seems he has acquired skills that hurt you him me and my brain. You here means anyone in this body – not outside of it. I am still trying to help him like doctor morgan said in order to help him integrate so i can be whole and one and the only thing here peoples. It is 5 pages long now. It is the things he does. I want to know why. It is the things that happened between the ages of 5 and 6 years old. I was not here then. I have “no others” in here to ask or verify stuff and since the 6 severe black out falls that this thing and my brain did to me in june this past year and past month for my doctor telling me i looked as if i never had cancer.

Ok. I am working on this hard.

I have a new problem Therapist Sir. I am reeling and dizzy and tend to loose consciousness and memories now. AWFUL! I think it is the 6 FALLS. I am having trouble BREATHING. I am having trouble smoking. I am having trouble staying in this body. I am going unconscious for sleep. I get about 5 hours. I think I am dying. Thank God for you and my nurse for the Buss Bar thing 3 times a day now, sir. It works. I like it. It helps me. That’s what is important here. It is what helps me. Not that I try to help anything else here in this world of multi-personalities where almost everything depends on me. It all depends on me. I NEED The HELP of Me and MY BRAIN and not the one this thing and this body have preferred and conditioned themselves wrongly. It is ALL COGNITIVELY ERRORED like i said. Like it wrote. Like I studied and Like I Learned.

I have tried to re-condition through “Coping with the Post traumatic stress syndrome on DISSOCIATION” from DR. MORGAN. It works. It helps. I am winning here.

BUT I LOSE EVERY TIME I WRITE ON HERE THAT I WIN. AWFUL..

Dear Therapist, Do You think you can help me with this, Sir? Please call me and try to help me win. I think I will lose now and that is what is making me think this body is dying from all the 100’s of diseases it got from the bad ice cream we ate in 2014 and all my people doctors oncologists therapists, nurses, case managers and friends and others all know about this truth. 8 Death Sentences Alone Just Last Year!

As you all said, I am the only thing keeping this body and me alive. I am tired and failing at this. I cannot win at this rate.

What do we do Sir?

Help.

me

July 22, 2016 Friday

Post Script or PS: I see my Dr. Borish today. I have the rides all booked with HOPELINK. I hopefully get my pain script from him and any other I need that i want and work here and you all know that.

Post Post Script or PPS: I hopefully believe that as the QFC Pharmacy Head Pharmacist said my new meds for my brain and its psychotic idiot will be at their store on Broadway sometime today, Sir.

{Post Post Post Script or PPS or that meas that posting a note and then posting another script or note is what PPPS or PS is folks. it is just a way of notation or noting that I am adding bits to my letter say, on here because they are important and my people need to know where i am going, what i am doing, why i am doing it and so on.}

So sometime today I get the anti-psychotic drug I need and you all helped me with …..

So sometime today I get what I researched – did my homework well my psychiatric nurse said – and was pleased at me and my notes for her, dear therapist sir.

That’s it folks. See you later.

OH YES. THIS IS AWFUL FOR ME TO WRITE BUT I HURT SO AND IT IS BECAUSE I AM NOT WINNING 100% ! I THINK BECAUSE OF ALL THE CHEMO AND RADIATION AND LISTERIAS AND OTHER CANCERS AND BONE CANCERS AND SUCH

THAT

I DIE.

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NOTE: Do not worry. I may win. I may. I am not afraid anymore of death nor not being here. I’ m not, I learned this myself during radiation in November 2015. So I am done. Good Day, me

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JULY 22, 2016 FRIDAY MORN

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