“”Dear Me,” “By kerasotes””
I just wanted to write to myself that I am tired and the medicine is making me sick. I want to throw up all day long and especially at night! I don’t know what it is that these people are doing. The bottles say that if you are bleeding – do not take them. The other bottle says that if you have ulcers – do not take this. Why am I?
I should call my doctor’s office and ask. After all, he’s the one who prescribed this stuff and I am tired of bleeding and hurting and the pain. I want to know if I can have Morphine. My cancer doctor said I could.
My regular doctor won’t prescribe it for me and I lost the chance at my previous doctor’s clinic because the other thing threw a fit that day and they abandoned me.
I decided I didn’t want it.
I didn’t want to be an addict but then I thought that my life is terminal anyway and now I am in so much pain, wouldn’t it be better if I were on a stronger pain killer medicine. I know that stuff at 50 milligrams kills the pain for 12 hours or so.
So what am I doing telling myself and others that I don’t want it.